by Karen Richardson

Karen Richardson, Devotee of Adi Da Samraj
I am an editor, researcher, feminist, social activist and adult educator, living in a small town in cottage country, in Eastern Ontario. Recently, I renewed my beginner's Vows to Adi Da and am regularly in contact with the community in Toronto. Whenever possible, I love to tell the story of how I came to Adi Da.

Early Life

I grew up in a typical middle class, liberal family in the suburbs of Toronto in the l950s. There was no religious upbringing, but as a young girl, one day I found myself looking up at the sunny spring sky and just 'knowing' that something wonderful would happen, not only to me, but to the whole world, in my lifetime.

However, as a young adult, I was depressed and anxious. Already, life seemed a dead end to me, without meaning or purpose, so I wondered what Gurus and Enlightenment were really all about. Thus began my search, the usual recreational spiritual tour of occult teachings, new age philosophy and psychology, that we take when we are questioning.

The "Real Thing"

About l986, I saw a poster entitled "Where is Happiness?" in a Toronto health food store, with a photo of Master Da Free John (as He was then known). Laughing his head off in a truly amazing, larger than life way, He captured me.

Soon, I attended an introductory night at the home of some long time devotees. That evening I learned a great deal about Adi Da's Wisdom Teaching and found myself deeply drawn to what I heard. Afterwards, we were invited to watch a video and I couldn't wait to see it, although I didn't know what to expect ... and what I saw was incredible.

There was Adi Da deep in contemplation, looking into the vast beyond with his eyes wide open, like a searchlight on the universe and a gentle tear rolling down his face, as if love wounded. I was riveted by His spiritual state and presence, something I'd never seen before, but it was instantly recognizable and I wanted to stay there gazing upon his countenance forever.

This was what I had been looking for all my life, without being able to name it. Now I tacitly knew that Enlightenment was indeed real and I had found my Guru! It was one of the most significant moments in my life.

I was soon attending chanting nights where it took my breath away to fall into Adi Da's limitless eyes in videos. It was subtley evident that there was no ego in Him, "no one present" to bounce my attention off and I would sometimes fall forward in a swoon.

A New Way of Way of Life

After my formal initiation as a member of Adidam in l996, I felt everything was right with the world. I could feel the naked supernal reality present in Adi Da's photos.

Since then, I've been sustained through the despair of divorce and the death of my father, just reading His books and the always amazing, ecstatic confessions of his devotees.

I was finally fortunate enough to actually see Adi Da in person at the main ashram, the Mountain of Attention in Lake County, California in January, 2006. I could ill afford the trip, but tears of joy filled my eyes as I went to the airport.

Amidst hundreds in the communion hall, meditating on the "spiritual form, presence and state" in His actual company was like being with an ancient Hindu god, in a timeless realm.

He gazed upon each person individually. As His attention came to me, I tangibly felt his Blessing Transmission "touch" the right side of my heart internally, as if pressing me gently by fingertip, although He was many yards away. This is where He says Divine Consciousness is seated in the human body.

Today and Today

Reading his vast and profound Teaching is always a grand feast for me; studying his lineage of Masters and how he rapidly attained the highest realizations; the spiritual structure of the cosmic universe (mandala of lights) and the esoteric spiritual anatomy of the body/mind; about the real process of dying and how to serve the transition of loved ones.

His detailed schema of the 7 stages of life makes clear sense of the confusing maze of errors and partial realizations in every religious and spiritual path worldwide, throughout history! And he has revealed the 4 final stages of Enlightenment, never before known or described by any other Adept. All my spiritual questions have been answered, beyond, beyond.

Today, given the awful state of the world, I would be in great despair without Adi Da's great wisdom and blessing intervention. I am no longer seeking the meaning of life. Whenever I see Adi Da's videos I am instantly happy and so thankful He is here in this dark period of human history.

To paraphrase Alan Watts' endorsement, "Adi Da is the real thing." I know that I have found an authentic spiritual Master of the first magnitude and never dreamed I would find such a One.

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